[ Jason feels devastated, and devastation quickly turns to the only defense he's got. anger. he's so fucking angry, but he doesn't even know what to be angry at. himself? Dick? Bruce? a fucked up situation that hasn't even happened to him yet?
he wants to fight, to shove Dick away from him as hard as he fucking can. to beat the shit out of him and jump back out that window and take off. to keep going and going until Gotham is far in the distance because what's the point? if they're all going to dump him anyway then what's the goddamn point of trying so hard to prove himself every single day? why not just leave now if he's going to leave anyway? leave people before they get a chance to leave you. then it's your choice, not theirs. isn't that what people say? he never learns. maybe this time he should learn.
but then Dick wraps his arms around him so warm and tight, and all thoughts leave his head. he's forgotten what a hug could feel like. one that's comforting, and careful, and meant to keep him together instead of take from him.
and he thinks maybe. maybe just once, or one last time, he can have this. it's Christmas after all. ]
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he wants to fight, to shove Dick away from him as hard as he fucking can. to beat the shit out of him and jump back out that window and take off. to keep going and going until Gotham is far in the distance because what's the point? if they're all going to dump him anyway then what's the goddamn point of trying so hard to prove himself every single day? why not just leave now if he's going to leave anyway? leave people before they get a chance to leave you. then it's your choice, not theirs. isn't that what people say? he never learns. maybe this time he should learn.
but then Dick wraps his arms around him so warm and tight, and all thoughts leave his head. he's forgotten what a hug could feel like. one that's comforting, and careful, and meant to keep him together instead of take from him.
and he thinks maybe. maybe just once, or one last time, he can have this. it's Christmas after all. ]