[ this is why Jason didn't want to talk about this stuff anymore. it gets too convoluted, too mixed up in what has happened, what could happen. Jason's already second guessing himself every step of the way, knowing that one wrong move and he's bound to fuck it all up.

and now he wonders... did he already fuck it up with his Dick? does Dick already think too badly of him to ever turn things around? he was so angry when Jason took out those cops. he looked at him with such disgust... maybe he doesn't want him around at all.

he tries to keep his emotions in check, which always feels like such a goddamn hard thing to do- but all of this information, it makes him feel close to spilling over. ]

Fuck.... fuck. What if I already messed things up? What if he can't stand me? I tried to help but he didn't see it that way. What if I fuck it up with Bruce?